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The Full Story…

Hi All. It’s been a little while. My usual go-to word for these situations is hectic. “My life has been so hectic” or “Things have been crazy lately”. Today, though, I’m at a loss for words. I don’t think there’s really an appropriate word to describe what my life has been as of late. It’s been a whirlwind of the emotions that come along with losing a loved-one. Sadness, anger, emptiness…It’s been a little hard to get my head around, but I just have to keep pushing on.

I’m going to try to keep this as short as possible, but please bear with me. Here we go:

About 3 weeks ago, my dad had been in a rehab center recovering from surgery on his leg. A nurse was in the room talking with him when suddenly he went unresponsive. His heart had literally stopped. Luckily, the staff and my father’s pacemaker/defibrillator were able to revive him quickly, so his brain was not without oxygen for an extended period of time. Sadly, though, he did not regain consciousness, and remained in that state in the ICU for 7 days.

Then, on day 8, my mom received a call saying that he had suddenly woken up. We were obviously all very excited, and went to the hospital to see him. He couldn’t really talk, but what can you expect after having a ventilator in your throat for a week? He was mouthing words, knew who everyone was, and was responding to commands.

The next day, he wasn’t as good, but still responsive. I convinced myself that he was just tired from all the commotion the day before. I only half acknowledged the fact that his kidneys weren’t producing urine, and thus he was essentially be poisoned from the inside. My mom kept saying, maybe he came back to say goodbye. He woke up so we could all see him and talk to him one more time. I refused to acknowledge that as a possibility.

The next day, I was just finishing lunch when one of my coworkers came and told me to go see my mom. I walked towards the door and saw my sister standing there; I could tell she had been crying. No one really had to tell me what had happened at that point. I found my mom and immediately fell into her arms in tears. We drove to the hospital to see him and say our goodbyes. The chaplain came in and said some prayers with the family, which was somewhat comforting, but the pain was still too fresh to wrap my head around.

The wake had an overwhelming turnout. I couldn’t believe how many people came, including a number of people who drove in from out of state. The funeral was a beautiful service, with lovely music provided by the choir from my high school, where my dad was heavily involved. It also helped immensely that Bill came and stayed with me pretty much the entire week. There was a lot of craziness, but he put up with it so that I could keep my head on straight.

It’s been just over a week, and things are starting to get back to normal. I’m back at work today, and thankfully it hasn’t been too stressful trying to get caught up. I know that some days will be harder than others, but I have to keep pushing on. I have to do all that I can to make my dad proud.

Thank you for taking the time to read through my novel (novella, short story?) here. I wanted to give you the whole story, and I promise there are happier posts to come. My blogging goal is to have two more posts for you this week, and be back in full swing next week. Thank you for being patient with me while I’ve been away from the blog.

 

❤ Chelsea

The Moment I Knew…

The moment I knew I liked you came about 30 minutes into our first chat on OkCupid. We were discussing reading and running, and basically anything but sex, which was a wildly refreshing change from all the sleaze-balls who’d messaged me in the weeks prior. It was nice to just sit and chat with no pressure to tell you “what I’d do to you if we were together right now”. Of course, that all came up later, but I already liked you then.

The moment I knew I wanted to meet you came about 2 weeks after we started chatting on OkCupid. I’d been putting off planning an actual face-to-face meeting with you, putting you on the back burner, and I’m not really sure why. I suppose it’s because I had so much fun talking to you, and I was afraid you’d be different in real life, like so many dates before you. I didn’t want to let go of the nice flow we had going. After a string of absolutely awful dates with guys with not-so-pure intentions, though, I was ready for someone different, and I decided it was worth the risk. So when I knew I had the apartment to myself for a weekend, I invited you over.

The moment I knew I wanted you to be mine came at about 11 PM the night of our first date. What an incredible day that was! I felt totally comfortable with you. We ordered pizza, and watched Mission Hill, which I hadn’t watched since I graduated from college. I was impressed that you’d come prepared for the night with more than just condoms, although that sentiment was much appreciated as well ;).

Then we decided to go snuggle up in my room and watch something online. You pulled up The Comedy Button’s “Alcoholocaust” episode on YouTube. There’s something to be said for a group of people who drink nasty beverages-both alcoholic and non-and eating shitty, expired snacks for the entertainment of their fans. And there’s definitely something to be said for a group of people who drink old Vietnamese alcohol that comes in a bottle that also houses a dead snake with a scorpion in its mouth. I don’t think I’ve ever laughed at something so hard in my entire life. It was the icing on top of an already incredible cake of a day. I slept better than I had in ages that night with you enveloping me, and I was sad to bring you to the train station the following morning. Two weeks later you asked me to be your’s, and I didn’t come down off the high for about a month.

The moment I knew for certain-as if I had any doubt to begin with-that you were a keeper came a little over 2 months into our relationship, on my birthday. We’ll try to avoid too much of the nitty-gritty depressing details, because we all know what went down that day, but you were amazing. When my mom called as we were walking out the door to start celebrating the day, you immediately wrapped me up in your loving arms and just let me cry. You kept me distracted all the way to the hospital so I could drive.

The greatest thing for me, though, was when we walked into the room. My entire immediate family was there, surrounding my father, who was laying there with unseeing eyes and more tubes than the New New York transit system. It must have been the most uncomfortable moment possible for you, but instead of putting your head in your shell and shying away from it, you immediately took me into your arms and spent the rest of the day making sure I was okay. You must have been dying from discomfort, but I never once felt like I needed to comfort you. I knew in that moment I could count on you to be there for me at my best and at my worst.

Each passing day brings about a new reason to be certain I want you around for a very long time (would you like to stay forever?). I’ve waited a long time (my entire life!) and kissed a lot of frogs to get here, but I can’t imagine life without you.

Christmas Cousins

Dress

This is my cousing Meredith. She’s always got something cute on, so on Christmas I took her photos to share her awesome style with you guys!

Dress: Gap (And it’s ON SALE too!)

Shoes

Boots: Marshall’s (similar)

Necklace

Necklace: American Eagle (similar)

Cousins

With nearly a foot of height between us, I was already at a disadvantage for this photo. Add in the fact that I forgot to grab my heels before this was taken and I don’t stand a chance, haha!

Dress: JC Penney (old, similar print), Jewelry: Coldwater Creek, gifted (bracelet, similar earrings)

MomPhotoBomb

My mom wanted to get in on the action too!

I hope everyone had a great holiday! Happy Almost Friday!

Oh Christmas Tree!

Tree

Our very first Christmas tree!

Chelsea

Me being cute in front of the tree.

Pants, Blouse, & Sweater: Worthington (similar pants, similar blouse, similar sweater)

Necklace: BaubleBar

Jamie

Jamie looking pretty as ever!

Sorry for the darkness of these photos, folks. I wanted to get the full effect of the tree in each photo.

Did anyone notice that Jamie and I dressed alike today with black and red outfits? We didn’t even plan that, haha!

Happy Tuesday everyone! Only 14 more shopping days until Christmas (and I haven’t even started yet…YIKES!)!

Stylish Monkey

I heard about this on the radio this morning on my way into the office, and I just HAD to share it with you guys!

If you haven’t seen this story yet, a monkey wearing a little sheepskin coat was seen wandering around an IKEA parking lot in Toronto yesterday afternoon. He had gotten out of his crate in the car while his owner was inside the store shopping. He has since been returned safely to his owner.

 

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How stinkin’ cute is this little guy?

 

Kind of makes you want to go out and get a pet monkey so you can dress him up in a little coat, doesn’t it?

I hope everyone had a great weekend and is having a good start to the week. Be on the lookout for some fun posts this week, including a spotlight on costume designer Jany Temime!

Friday Letters

One of my favorite bloggers, Mikell at Love & Such, does a feature every week called “Friday Letters” where she writes little notes to people/things that have made a difference in her life. Since I’ve been sick all week and have NO outfit pics to share with you, I’m going to be a total copy-cat today and do a Friday Letters post! Here we go:

Dear Bill, Thank you for being the most amazing boyfriend a girl could ask for. I could not even begin to thank you for the things you’ve done for me in the short time we’ve been together. I feel so lucky to have you in my life and I can’t wait to have more adentures with you :-*

Dear Sasha, You get the cutest puppy EVER award! Even when you’re eating ornaments off of the office Christmas tree, you have the uncanny ability to make me smile. I mean, how can you NOT smile looking at a face like that?

sasha

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My Apologies!

Good morning readers. Sadly, I do not have a post for you today, and for that I apologize sincerely. I had all sorts of fun festivities planned between Thanksgiving, my birthday, and a little shopping that would have allowed for TONS of fun pictures and stories to tell. Sometimes, though, the universe doesn’t care what your plans are and throws you for a loop. Without being too depressing or going into a lot of detail, a very jarring turn of events put a family member in the hospital Friday morning, and that’s pretty much where I’ve been all weekend. I will be back with a fashion-based post tomorrow, though. I have a couple of fun posts in mind that I’m sure you all will enjoy! For now, to lighten up the mood a bit, I’ll leave you with this funny pic I snapped at H&M in the city last weekend:

She wears it quite well, don’t you think?

❤ Chelsea